"Here we go..."

We are now two days into the New Year. To me this means that we are also 16 days away from the start of my first semester of nursing school. That thought makes me sick. Literally. I have made myself sick for the last two days. My blood pressure has been high- I can feel it... I have had an AWFUL headache. I have been dizzy. But mostly I have been nervous. For two days straight. Dramatic? Yes. I can be from time to time… But mostly it’s the fearing what I don’t know that gets me. I know my schedule. I even know the instructor that I will have for clinical (which makes me feel better even though I once referred to her as “evil in human form” after our last check off in my summer class). Today I finally had enough, though. I can’t stay sick. I can do this. ~Deep breath~ After all- they make these classes challenging, not un-passable , right? So I took a hot bath, looked up my classes and books and syllabus online and then relaxed. I still don’t know how I will pay for everything this semester. I don’t know how I will afford health insurance. I don’t know how I am going to keep my house clean, workout, do chores, and be a good mom, wife, and student. I don’t know when my packet will come in so I can get it filled out and sent back in. I do know that I have the next two weeks and two days to make sure I have everything in order, while everyone else has had the last two months to get it all done. But I also know that I am here, exactly where I am supposta be; where God put me. And since he put me here, he will give me everything that I need. I just have to trust and be flexible. It has all worked out up to this point, although not in the time frame that I had planned, but in Gods. And I don’t know why God made this process happen the way He did, but I appreciate it, and I am looking for the lesson in it because there always is one. So while today is full of more questions than answers, I am going to relax and just trust. I know where I am, and I know I am where I need to be, when I need to be. All the rest will work it’s self out, and it will all be ok.